Olympic track star and bobsledder Lolo Jones is no stranger to disappointment, but it looks like her latest loss – on Dancing With The Stars – hit her especially hard. The athlete, who missed out on winning a medal at both the latest Summer and Winter games, took to Facebook to express her devastation after being eliminated from the reality competition Tuesday night. She said her failure on the dance floor conjured memories of online tormenting she received after coming up short at the games.

In a long and emotional post, Jones wrote, “When I was dancing last night and messed up I had flashbacks of the three Olympics and that people constantly tease me about. I thought oh no here it comes again. People are going to ridicule me. I’m so tired of feeling embarrassed.” She went on to say that when she went backstage after her number she “went in a backroom and fought back tears,” adding that, “I felt so broken. So unlovable. Embarrassed.”

Jones was endlessly taunted on Twitter after the 2012 Summer Olympics in London, where she tripped on a hurdle and placed fourth – despite have been seen as a strong contender to win the gold. Then it only got worse after the 2014 Sochi Winter games, when she and bobsled teammate Jazmine Fenlator finished in 11^th place.

The athlete hasn’t always helped the situation, as she has been known to tweet some snarky comments of her own. During the George Zimmerman trial in 2013, she took to the social media platform to compare witness Rachel Jeantel to Tyler Perry character Medea. When Drake hosted the latest Espy awards, she tweeted, “It’s amazing that Drake is hosting the @Espys but it’s gonna be tough for him to hand out all those awards to Rihanna’s ex boyfriends.” Both these incidents, and others like them, triggered strong anger and backlash.

Jones had hoped that Dancing would provide her an opportunity for a clean slate. As she wrote in her post, “I really wanted to stay on the show and have the layers of hurt washed away by showing the public how hard I work. I wanted to come away a victor for once. I wanted to do so good performing in public that the haters would stop teasing me.” But, she says, “That was my way of thinking. Not Gods. Instead I need to trust God that he would heal my heart.

 The athlete concluded by expressing gratitude to fans who have supported her, writing, “Thank you everyone who wrote me kind messages. You were helping me not fall into darkness.”